Once I was spit out of a corporate machine back in December 2008, I began to really question what I had been doing with my life, and what I should be doing from here on out.
A journalist at heart, I was happiest with a career built on bringing relevant information to people, and knowing that my efforts mattered at the end of the day. Over the years, my articles connected people, told them what they needed to know about their communities, and made them take notice of the good and the bad around them. While there were rewards, newspapers were demanding and unforgiving work in general, and eventually, I had to stand up for myself. Needing a break from the profession in 2006 for several personal reasons, I did what many in the journalism world would call “sell out,” and I went to work for a corporate marketing department. That job paid better and the hours were steady, but in the end it left me feeling insignificant, hollow and in a cold world where I didn’t speak the cut throat “language.”
When that two year experience ended, I was not centered, grounded, in harmony with my purpose, or any of the buzzwords and phrases used to describe living in that luscious state of knowing who you are and that what you do matters in the world.
In fact, I felt I had back-pedaled in my personal development and knowledge of who I was as a person and a "spiritual being having a human experience."
I was lost on a lot of levels, and I began to question whether that level of meaning in life was possible. I questioned and deconstructed the idea, and eventually remembered that I have been there before — during moments of service as a reporter and editor, and as a volunteer, and when I am being the best friend and daughter I can be. The answer was “yes, personal satisfaction does exist, and it is possible to be in sync with your highest purpose" ... I just wasn’t in that space at the moment.
When you don’t know what tomorrow brings, you start to become even hungrier for meaning and a purpose. You cling to anything you can latch on to and trust in. When I found myself unemployed, there was no nine-to-five distraction anymore, no daily grappling with feelings of being out of place in a humorless environment, no pretending I was someone I am not … I was alone and in charge again. What would happen next was up to me.
So, I decided I would recognize the gift in what I was given, and put the time to good use. I had fallen so far behind in my reading, and it had been forever since I learned anything new. My thirst for self-knowledge was insatiable.
To fill the hours and keep me company around this quiet house, I started downloading more and more free pod casts on topics that interested me, like the Law of Attraction, manifesting, raw food, energy psychology, and the like. I also tuned into http://www.hayhouseradio.com/, http://www.blogtalkradio.com/, http://www.lawofattracttalkradio.com and http://www.themanifest-station.com/ to hear shows by my favorite new-thought authors, and listen to callers who were in the same boat as me. I immersed myself in information, bathing in it every day and sometimes testing what I had heard. I shoveled snow through a particularly nasty winter to "The Prosperity Podcast” and did the dishes to “The Indigo Room.” Suddenly, I had found a whole new world of “friends” who were seekers like myself, and the world didn’t seem so lonely.
Much of what I will blog about here is information and concepts introduced during those hours of listening. There will be pretty straightforward products and concepts, and also ones that are a little bit “out there.” I’ll let you decide which is which. Take only what works for you, and respect the rest, please. Remember, it’s “different strokes for different folks" — what clicks for one person is bunk to another, depending on your unique path and where you are in your personal development and your relationship with your Source.
As for me, I discount nothing and try everything, because I have nothing to lose!
Enjoy.
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